babysitting...again.

right now im kind of annoyed. 

1. my sister is being afraid of something thats probably gone by now. and she should have been asleep about an hour ago. and soon our parents are going to get home and ask why shes still up. 

2. my sunburn started peeling, so now when i touch my back theres a bunch of dead skin on my finger. delicious. 

3. my parents still arent home, and its 11:42. 

4. jose ditched me today, but then he called me later and said he felt bad because of it and would hve rather spent that time with me. <3>

5. rhianna is now playing her violin right next to the wall of a sleeping baby, and doesnt seem to get that she cant play it over here because she going to wake olivia up. and is now complaining that i never got her her medicine. 

im going to go listen to the adicts now. they had better get home soon. i dont like feeling like the mother. 

at the moment i am wearing a dress. and it is tye-dyed. and i heard a voice again. but oh well. and i now have 14  minutes to finish this. why do the voices talk in japanese....? but i now have my own hippie dress. :] it would have been my moms...but it didnt really fit her.  but its still big on me, and it touches the floor.  uhhhhhhhh....mmmmm..... what happened the past few days anyway? i cant remember... D: oh, im not calling my sister rhianna anymore. im calling her kiko-chan. the only reason why its "kiko" is because im too lazy to say "tukiko." tukiko is "child of the moon" in japanese. and "-chan" .....just because i can. >:D umm, i forgot what it stands for... ill find it tomorrow. wow, thats a lot of red lines... and i didnt spell anything wrong either....oh well. ima go try to play guitar again. xD

...and kat, you should post another blog! i miss being able to know if youre alright or not. :]

more drawings

not finished photoshopping this one yet. :]

so today....... kevin missed the bus again. then there was testing. then there was lunch. and kevin came, so i threw goldfish at him. then we finished changeling. then i missed the bus again, and the other one. and kevin and jose tried to drag me to tunnel 13. but that didnt happen. then when jose caught his bus, me and kevin texted him saying i got hit by a bus. he got all "worried" and told kevin that he was going to kill him for not saving me if that really happened. and now we're all going to kevins "tin can" tomorrow after school. xD

friday, weekend, parts of today.... yea. ¬.¬

friday:

i missed my bus and jose waited with me for the next one because he had a performance. jose is in the band, and he plays the cello. so when the bus came, he left, and when i was on the bus, my dad called me and said to get off and sit there outside. so my parents came and then we went to the steel pit and ate. then we went and saw joses performance, but he didnt know we were going to be there. so when we got there, he was just like "OH MY GOD, YOURE HERE!!" he was pretty happy to see me... but then they played a whole bunch of songs, and viva la vida by coldplay, but the guy who was singing it needs to practice a bit on the high pitches. other than that, he was an amazing singer. but then when jose got off, he said that he had to go because he had to take the bus and learn a new song because he was going to play at his mothers wedding. my dad heard him though so we ended up driving him to the church hat they had rented. and now all i see in my head over and over is the last time that i had seen him that day when he was waving goodbye.... but anyway. my parents thought he was nice, so thats always a good thing. then we went to ralphs to buy cake stuff for my sisters birthday which would be the next day, and then i saw kevin, whos like joses best friend. but then we went home, and by then it was like ten o clock at night, so i went to bed. 

saturday:

it was my little sisters birthday, but all we really did for her on that day was tell her happy birthday, open her presents,  and was it okay if we went to mayfaire and did the rest of her birthday stuff tomorrow? she said she was a little upset about it, but as long as we did end up doing something for her tomorrow then it would be alright. mayfaire is this one umm, gathering i guess for one of my parents beer clubs. we go up to this one park, and they have a band and food, and beer tasting. (nobody got drunk as far as i know.) but while they did their beer stuff, me and rhianna and our friend amy were in her camper watching goosebumps and school of rock. then i went and sat in a tree for the rest of the time and wrote the lyrics to everlong in my sketch book. then we got home at about ten again, and i went to bed. :/

sunday:

i got up and got ready, and then we went and got my sisters friend esmeralda, and we tried to find gravity hill, which we didnt end up finding, and then we went to color me mine, and then we got pizza, and then we went home and decorated cupcakes. 

...i ate one of those cupcakes today. :D

[RE-EDITEDEDEDEDEDED SINCE YESTERDAY.]

oh, and the whole weekend i was trying to learn how to play guitar. i can now play mary had a little lamb, yankee doodle, and old mcdonald! yea! im just a little kid like that. xD but the next song that im going to try to teach myself is going to either be lonely day by system of a down, or everlong by the foo fighters, or all around me by flyleaf.... whichever one seems the easiest. but right now, they all seem hard cept for the beginning of lonely day. but it has a really nice solo around the middle, so thats going to take me awhile. and all around me is...well, i dont know. thats probably going to take awhile as well though. and everlong is like the calmest one of the three, so that might take a couple of weeks at most. and now i can play some of that one lullaby... the one that goes "go to sleeeeeeeeeep, go to sleeeeeeeeeep..." that one. im trying to learn it for olivia. but now i have a little tiny blister on my first finger. and it hurts. so now whenever i think of it i hear the "charlie, you bit my finger!" thing in my head. god, the stupidity in that video is entertaining. 

im going to go get the annoying ten year old now. shes probably going to complain to me again. like she always does. tehn when i come back im going to have to re-re-edit this....again because i still never put what happened today. :D

TODAY:

hmm.... i got up and i was late....then i got on the bus and kevin was actually there for once. (he always misses it.) then we got to vons and were waiting for jose but then he got bored and we went to go get starbucks... then kevin payed with quarters. then we waited for him to get his caramel thing, but the girl behind him had ordered a small one and he ordered a big one and she ended up getting his because his came out first and she thought it was his.... then the other came out and he was just like "umm, i ordered a big one." then the lady was just like, "oh, i think she just walked off with you drink then." kevin: "not my problem." so she made him another one and when we were walking back to the bus stop again he just kept complaining about how the other one looked better and that this one tasted horrible. he does that every day though. he always complains about his coffee. then jose came and we sat and talked about kevins awesome....ummm.....bass or base? my mother says bass. but that still makes me think 'fish.' this is a lot of writing. ehhh...then there was testing.....then there was lunch and varsik and talar were wearing tutus and dancing to techno.... then testing again....then we watched changeling.... and then i missed my bus and walked mel home. and then jose felt bad cuz he ditched me to go practice. then i got home and went to get rhianna. then when we were walking across the street someone yelled from their car "HEY LOSERS, GET A CAR!!!!" and i found that funny. :D do i look sixteen? and that will be the question of the day tomorrow. i dont think i look sixteen.... my sister said maybe fifteen and a half at most. my mom said no not really. and my dad didnt let me explain, so all he said is that hes "gonna get a shotgun." thats usually what he says whenever i say that someone likes me. ima go take a shower now.

so this morning i decided to make an animation. it starts with well, uhhh....i dont really know how to explain it. it draws out a hand like how they make heart shapes and then it draws the whole hand, and then it draws another hand, and then it colors in the first hand with a pale skin tone, then it colors in the second hand with a darker skin tone, and thats as far as i got. but the next time that i get on my computer, im going to fill in the heart red. then itll drip and the hands will move out of the way, itll stay floating there, then the hands are going to crush it. then maybe itll reform itself or something, but itll have cracks in it. :/ i dont know. but i might end up making that my video. so far i got..... thirteen point two seconds! xD now i gotta make it a whole minute? D: hmm....what should i do to make it a minute long? i have i think 134 frames right now.... 

i also have this bite on my leg.....i think i wrote about it before. but today it started bleeding and it was literally dripping blood....i found it very amusing. it looked like...i dont know, dripping red kool-aid? but less watery. ...like blood. xD it stopped bleeding awhile ago though. ah well. 

now im going to go eat dinner and then probably draw.... buh-bai. ^~^

weekend.

saturday:

i woke up at about 11, then i was told we were going to go to the dads club cabin for a work party. that meant an hour or more of driving up a windy hill to get to this one cabin in the middle of nowhere to go work with a bunch of people i barely even knew. so we got ready and drove the hour uphill, then by the time we got there, the gate to get in was closed. so we sat there for a few, trying to figure out what to do. then me my dad and my sister got out and started walking to the cabin to see if anyone was there who had a key. i walked faster than they did, so i got there first. but when i got there, nobody else was. there were tire tracks, and it was clean like they had been there already. when we all walked back to the car, we told mother and then we sat in the car in front of the gate and ate sammiches. this was saturday, the day before mothers day, and i had seen some flowers on the way back.  so i made up the excuse that i needed to use the bathroom because the only bathroom around was by the cabin. so my sister and i walked back to the cabin and picked a few of the flowers and some leaves from the trees and made a bouquet. when me and rhianna were walking back, when we got close to the van i held my hand behind my back to hide the flowers. when i got to the car my mom was just like "are you okay?" she thought i hurt my back or something. then i gave her the flowers and she just had a look on her face that said 'what???' but she was happy. then we sat there and finished our sammiches, then we left. when we got back home, mother checked the phone messages and there was one from dave (someone who was supposed to be at the work party) saying that he just got back and it was a shame we couldnt make it. so what had really happened was the work party was earlier in the morning and had ended and everyone had left before we got there. i found it amusing. xD 

right, i just remembered that that was only the beginning of the day. o.o we got home at about maybe 3:30 and then had to get ready to leave again. my parents were going to go to a grateful dead concert, and me, rhianna, and olivia were going to go to my moms friend jamies house. so we went over there at about maybe 4 or five something, and the parent peoples left, and then i sat and played with livy (olivia) and presley (olivias buddy....jamies other baby.) then me and megan went outside and played catch. megan is presleys older  sister. (shes 8.) then olivia and presley took a bath, and we watched hotel for dogs, and olivia had 2 bottles and still wouldnt fall asleep. she ended up almost falling asleep at one o clock in the morning, and the only thing that had made her shut up was when i sung the chorus for imaginary to her.  "in my field of paper flowers, and candy clouds of lullaby, i lie inside myself for hours, and watch my purple sky fly over me." then my parents came, and we went home. 

.....and i made a new heart right before i had found my old one. this one is black and red. so now i have 3 hearts. xD but i just gave the new one to talar, so i only have two again. ^~^

sunday:

rhianna was misbehaving and yelling the whole morning, so my mom was kinda pissed. so we sat around till we went to the mothers day picnic for like a half hour and then we wen back home and i was babysitting.  my parents went to a bar again. so when nine o clock came, olivia was walking around "nine nine!"then my parents came home and olivia and rhianna went to sleep while i sat there in the dark thinking about things and people. end of weekend. 

drawings.

i have decided to post some more of my drawings.  along with the now finished drawing of aimi. 

i have no clue why i drew this. it still scares me a bit. o.O i didnt try to draw it, i just did without really realizing it. like i was possessed or something. i just drew...a boy or a girl? with bandages all over uhh...its face. i really have no clue why this is what i ended up drawing. 

this would be what aimi turned out looking like. hmm... a shy school girl maybe. 

i had sewn a little black heart before. it had neon green thread around the edges. and whenever i was upset or angry i would just sit there holding my heart in my hands and stabbing it with pins and needles. i had tortured my heart very often, but it was still in one piece. i was going to make a little black teddy bear to put it in. i had carried that heart everywhere.  then one day i took it out, and i never found it. i need to make a new heart, but until then, i have no heart. xD

 this has got to be one of the best eyes i have ever drawn. ö

i dont know.... i was bored.  it looks freaky. :/ 

 lawl, little insane ring master. xD

wittle chibi oli sykes. ^~^ jeyla put the tattoos on...but neither of us has a sharp enough pencil, so theyre just little dots on his arms. D: 

.....there was one more that i was going to put up, but every time i try to upload it to my computer it says theres something wrong. i dont really get what it is. so ill try to put it up some other time. 

moulin rouge.

i really like that movie. :] its really sweet, even though she dies... but the big dude who sang "roxanne" kinda scared me. o.o he looked really mad for no reason at all. but he also looked like he knew how... what was the writers name? christian? yea, it looked like he knew how christian felt, to be in love with a prostitute. and was it just me, or did the green absinthe faerie [faerie, fairy, however you want to spell it] look like tinker bell? i remember seeing the commercial for this when it first came out, and at the time, i was like eight or nine, so i wanted to see it because it looked bright, colorful, and entertaining. xD now ive seen it at age fourteen and i found out that it is in fact bright, colorful, and entertaining. :D but not the most

 appropriate movie for a nine-year-old, no matter how much you know. 

and this scene where they first introduce satine. it made me want to draw it out. i think ill try to draw her, but i probably wont do her justice. xD she really is pretty. 

i can imagine her in an angel costume or something with wings. its too bad her character had to die.. i wonder what  would have happened if she didnt have tuberculosis and died. (it was tuberculosis, right?) 

one of my friend was coughing up blood last year. he said it was really painful and that he had to go to the emergency room. and while he said that he was laughing because his initials are E.R. like  the Emergency Room. xD but hes ok now. but when i saw the blood on the tissue the first time, he was the one i though of. it made me realize how painful that must have been. he runs track now, just like he had before, and can run normally without coughing up blood. 

i think im going to go draw now. and i have finished drawing aimi now, so ill get the picture up over the weekend. 

random pics

ive decided to use this one for my story. 

his name is kiyoshi. kiyoshi means quiet in japanese.

and now im going to go draw his soon-to-be only friend aimi. aimi means love. (because of the ai.)

ms. goldin suggested that i write a story one one of the characters that ive drawn.

im thinking about doing that, but i dont know if i should make a new drawing, or just use one of the ones that ive already drawn. 

so, 1. should i use one of the characters that ive already drawn and which one?

or 2. should i just draw a new character and what should it look like and what should the name be?

so now one of my friends thinks that i'll go out with anyone and everyone and that i had faked that i cared about him. xD

so here he is, trying to make me hate my life and kill myself already, and i'm just sitting here trying really hard not to start laughing. he's telling me to go out with someone that i met two weeks ago. 

i do like this guy, but im not sure that i like him that much. i like him more like....hm. well, i guess like a really really really really good friend. 

i dont know what going out with him will do for anyone though... god, this is so amusing.

its like hes afraid to say it to my face. he still hasnt. 

he says that he will tomorrow....but my friends also say that theyre going to kill him. xD

ill get my video camera.

my mom has a friend who has 4 pet llamas. 

his ranch is called the black pearl ranch.

and this llamas name is jack. (really. his name is jack.) 

and so i photoshopped this guys pet llama.

saturday:

i went to the zoo again. with my grandma. she lives in Bakersfield, and rarely comes all the way down to see us. 

when we were all at the zoo, we were parking and four women go and stand by a tree where we were parked. two of them had obviously gone through lots of plastic surgery. they looked like living bratz dolls. or a female michael jackson. what i was trying to figure out was who they thought really found them attractive. then i saw them inside of the zoo...and took a picture. xD yea, im so mean, arent i? 

and i finally had that cotton candy. ;D

then we left the zoo....we...uh.....right. we went to a restaurant called gordon beirsch (im not entirely sure of the spelling... =/ ) and then we went back home and my only-too-peppy grandmother left at about 9:15 at night. yes, i love her, but she can get annoying a lot of the time because she uses baby voices for everything and everyone and insists that everyone call her 'grandma kitty.' 

sunday:

i sat around till about one, then i went on the computer till three, then my dad said we were going to go get my bus pass sticker while my mom and olivia slept. then we went to seven different places to try and find a little sticker....and then we went mini golfing....and on hole 15 it took me 3 tries just to hit it the first time and keep it on the green. xD the second time i hit it a little boy outside of the fence who was leaving had to get it because it had rolled outside.... im special like that. ^~^

then we came back home and now im sitting here with nothing to do but type this thing. xD

and kat, i may have found someone you know. i forgot who it was though.... you posted a picture of him once before, awhile ago.