i am worried about:

kim. 

my grades.

my friends grades. 

my older little sister's health.

my friends lives.

olivia.

dun ask why. i just am. all the time. i feel like a mother. >.<>:D 

okay, now i looked it up. it says "conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural." well, now tell me what those mean. 

usual: normal

not abnormal: normal

regular: normal

natural: normal

they all mean the same thing. i looked in a dictionary, not a thesaurus. 

i dun like that online-dictionary-thingy. D: 

but anyway..... today jose came over to my house and tried to teach me guitar. because he knows as well as i do that im not going to get very far when i cant even read any music. xD but he tried to teach me some of the maleguiña or however youre supposed to spell it, and i thought i was actually getting it. but then i just watched the video on youtube of the guy that first played it playing it...hes blind, and it made me realize that im not going to get it right anytime soon. he plays amazingly, and im still trying to get it so that i can play the simple songs and get the chords right. (today i got a minor, a major, e minor, e major, and c minor...or major, i cant remember which one it was...) but then again i did kinda just start playing. so, i guess i have a chance. wait, am i being optimistic about something? :O wow, that hasnt happened in a while.  kim is supposed to be the optimistic one. thats why shes my blonde. ;D shes the smiley one. while im...well, negativity. :] yup, steffys negativity. ^~^ steffanie really should come back and visit....wow, for a moment there i almost forgot how to spell "back." i almost spelled it "balk." okay, ima go practice now....then sleep. oh wait, what was i talking about before? guitar again? i think so.... wow, ADD. xD